Endless Desires
- Baeminteacher
- 8월 12일
- 3분 분량
There are many diseases whose fundamental causes remain unknown.
Yet I believe that the root of such illnesses often lies in our own endless desires.
Many diseases, I think, are essentially emotional in nature, arising from the excesses of our desires.
We live in a world overflowing with knowledge and information.
But rather than seeking more knowledge about how to meet God, do I truly need any more knowledge at all?Perhaps we do not need more than what is already in the Bible.
Nevertheless, we constantly pursue more—more knowledge, more stories, more episodes, more stimulation, more so-called healthy foods.
In the age of the smartphone, we can access information instantly.
Yet so much of it is filled with endless lessons, sentimental appeals, amusements, adventures, and entertainments.
They do not lead us to the meaning of life or to health, but instead bring us greater anxiety.
We must turn inward and examine the desires that continually drive us to fill our minds and bodies with more and more.
Perhaps what we truly need is quietness, calm, and peace—not more teaching, persuasion, argument, or resistance.
Perhaps we need simply to be present—here and now—aware of ourselves, seeing how we are always entangled in desires, burdened by guilt after indulging them, expecting them to give us joy or comfort.
We are never satisfied, never fulfilled, never at peace.
In chasing those “bluebirds,” we run and run, only to reach the edge of a cliff, ignoring what lies beyond: the fall.
Last night, I mindlessly watched YouTube videos of a man in a well-tailored suit visiting luxury restaurants and hotels.
Perhaps the splendour of these places stirred something in me; I spent nearly an hour absorbed in his videos.
But do I need such information?
All I truly need is to meet God.
I want to shut out external stimuli.
I want to be present.
Excessive stimulation only enslaves me to my desires.
Indeed, I realise I have long lived as a slave to my own desires—desires without end—that distort my emotions, lead me into sin, and fill me with quilt.
Living as a slave, I can never be free from sin and guilt.
I want to be free from this state of slavery.
All the knowledge, pleasure, information, food, emotional stimulation, and artificial comforts only distract me from “the presence.”
I know that the wholeness of life is rooted in my reality.
But the pursuit of satisfaction, fulfilment, and perfection only exhausts me, draining my vitality, attention and time.
For true healing of mind and body, I must set myself free.
In truth, nothing imprisons me but myself.
There is no prison except the one I have built.
It was my expectation of comfort, satisfaction, fulfilment, pleasure, and perfection that led me here—and my desires that kept me longing for them, again and again, drawing me away from the presence.
I have wandered so far and for so long, chasing illusions—“bluebirds” created by my desires to mask the shadow side of myself.
In doing so, I have failed to embrace my wholeness, the very wholeness that connects me to nature, the universe, and ultimately, to God.
In this way, I have been running from God.
I have avoided Him.
How can I meet God while held captive by my own endless desires, fenced in by the walls I built from knowledge, information, and stories?
I have never truly been in the presence—the only place where I can meet Him.
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